Friday, 23 June 2017

I'm Going Back to the Start


I feel the eyes of the other passengers needling into my skin.

I wonder what I will say if anyone starts talking to me, if anyone asks where I am going.

I decide to say that I am going to visit a friend. They will never know that this friend is really more of a stranger, that I’ve only met him once (three days ago), that we’ve been emailing one another for the past month and that his last email to me was entitled ‘Detention’…

Tuesday, 13 June 2017

Extreme Mindfulness



After a busy few days of lots of playing (and lots of cuddles and sitting in sunny gardens and tourist-ing), I am feeling very lovely and blissful and chilled.

*Happy sigh*

As someone who can get stressed and who sometimes finds life a bit challenging, I've often wondered what it is about spanking and BDSM play that makes me feel so utterly blissed out.

And then I realised:  BDSM is basically just an extreme form of mindfulness.

Tuesday, 6 June 2017

Morality Check

Sometimes I forget how non-standard my life is.

One of my kinky friends advised me to 'embrace the weird' rather than trying to normalise TTWD to myself and, while she's probably right, I find it particularly hard when my vanilla friends ask me for relationship advice.

For example, I never know how to react when a friend reveals (in tones of outrage) that their partner has been looking at porn. I mean, what am I supposed to say? "Oh God, that's awful"?? How could I be so hypocritical? Particularly when I'm well aware that I probably look at more porn than Mr M and Darling Girl combined...